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I am happy to write once again ...Now its about all the messengers I've installed.What to say now ? I've a account on allmost every comman website ..you name them and I have a account if I don't I'll create it latter :P**

I'd stopped using Yahoo ,Rediff and MSN long long back but still their icons are on my desktop ..I promised to myself along with all the stupid estuff I am gona delete all those messangers from my desktop whenever I'll getback home.

I was planning to delete my one and only Gmail account which I use the most .

Then I realised there is no point deleting the email account lets disable the chat option ...uhmm I gave a thought again and finally decided I'll block some people rather to disable the chat .I am away from home not using my PC ..Its my Cell phone device which connects me to Internet ..A wise friend suggested to change the phone (People jealous of my multimedia phone ..hahah!! but its really hard to digest ..I can't change the phone ..grrr!)

Then he suggested me to deactivate GPRS from my cell phone .That was really a wonderful idea .I'll be having a email account but I'll move away from chat !!!Bingo !that's exactly what I was looking for ....So finally stopped chatting ..rather I would say I have not stopped totally ;), but my situation is under-controlled now.I no longer stay up late just for chatting..I have been chatting onl9 for years. It has not done any good to me***, I knew alot of idiots online***, but I have also got to know a few nice people, and I appreciate the friendship I found here. However, I have found myself too relying on virtual world to express myself. I guess now it is time to let go of this and return to real life to really find someone I can trust.A true friend !!!!duh! heavy words !

I have implemented strict rules about chatting. its not the only way to communicate Another way of communication is e-mail, so I'm just using it!

HAppy!!

** IF its not paid

*** not true for all

OMG! Is it really happening with me :P

lines from some SMS I have had in last 24 hours ! (Soacha nae tha ki itna bda kuch ker dia meine ...)
whats wrong with you ?
are you olrite ?
Everything olrite ?Y u deleted your Orkut ?
nice way to show ur attitude ;)
are you mad ?
bas ye bta hua kya hai ?(they think I'm gone mad )abhe ab koi Orkut se account delete kerdega toh woh pagal ho gya kya !! :0
I had more than 100 friends, 20+ fans, 25+testimonials & scraps (I use to delete almst evertime I login ), at "the" orkut. These numbers are quite ok 'coz I've got frnds who hve something like 400-500 friends, 100+ fans, 50+ testimonials & 10000+ scraps.
Gosh!....What a popularity..!!(N My frnds use to say happy u r Populr..M I ? ahem ahem!!

Don't know whenever we meet neone ,newhere be it a bus ....d first thing we ask after a short talk ..
Guess ? ?
letme tell you ....

whats your ID I'll add you on Orkut! yeah ! ....WTH!I did it sevral times
now as I had 100+ friends ,I have myphone book memory flooding with phone numbers But I receive calls from selected numbers then why the hell the numbers were in my Memory card ..pta nae !!
Muje bhi nae pta !!So finally I've deleted all the numbers and moved a new song to the memory ;) !!(Best utilisation of memory space )

uhmmmmm ..lets think mature now ..lots of fans ,friends does that really mean that I had so many "friends", so many "fans" & so much popularity..??
Do I really deserve all those sweet & superior words that were all written in my "testimonials"..!! If I want to think non-pessimistic , I'd say, arey yaar! Of course ,I do ..they are all my friends some were fans too ;)lolz!& I deserve those testimonials.heheeh!! But on the other hand, if I introspect, retrospect & try to see that reality, I come to know that I was seriously under heavy misconceptions.
every Second Testi had a line "she is confident,Always smiling ,happy as her name blah blah !! M I really the same ?I had a hard time thinking on these things and finally come to the point that - nae ya ! mein aise nae hu...bahut ho gya ! ab nae !
I was reading a book ..better to say I was asked to read a book (Papa ne Dhamki hi di thi seedhe seedhe padlena na bus me timebhi accha pass ho gayega ..Don't listen to that songs jo pachas baar sun chuke ho n u want to complete century ...beta U'll have to read that book will ask what was there in the book next weekeend )
and you know what ?
I felt so bore to read the book for 1 hour ..then I felt yaar! ab padna toh hai he maje le ker padte hai n then I was happy to note that today only I was able to understand the social philosphy ..apne words me bole toh orkut's philosophy...yaar ghuma fira ker sab baatein yahi atak jaati hai Gmail /yahoo the online stuff!! (and hence the psychology of so many of my 'so called' "friends", vis-a-vis my own psychology) & hence I'd say I rightly deleted my account.
All my friends likes to share their achievements, their prosperity & good times to all of his/her friends through the Orkut's albums. There are people who share their such snaps, but I felt jealous of them (something which is impossible between friends). Similiarly there are people who felt jealous seeing my snaps. But still we enjoy a place in each other's "friend list" or may be even in "fan's list"..!!:)After realizing all the above, I know very well that if I'll need a help of any of my (orkut or socalled old friends ) friends & if I ask them, these are the only persons who will not help me & make the fun of my necessity. I have faced these situations 2-3 times in last days (that I needed a friend's help & the refused indirectly) & hence am so confident that one must must must not expect any help from friends.
Actually I dont expect anything from anyone friend or whomsoever, and that is the best way to maintain any friendship.That is my philosophy..!! :)

Also, it is well said: "One is your friend till you don't expect anything from him/her; and you are his/her friend till you fullfill all of his expectations..!!" Gone are the days of "A friend in need is the friend indeed". :D
And above all, orkut was sucking all of my free time. Orkut kills time. The presence of orkut in my life, kept me away from blogging, newspapers ,books and & so many things.and hence now I hope probably I'd spend some more time here with some of my passions(Its been couple of years I m doing thing coz I've to do them ..now will do things as I want to do them ) and of course with some good books and some real friends .At the outset, I am very happy to delete my orkut account. :))))))
*******And this post doesn't say that I wasn't happy with my frnd circle ,I was not happy nehow ...areey naam hi happy hai ..have to maintain the degnity ;)lolz!(Kaafi maje kiye hai) .Have got sum gems as frnds its just we don't have time for Orkut n stuff!

I am so very happy :)
Cheers !!
Happy :)

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