R u happysharma?

We all love recognition, we all also love to be recognized, don’t we?
I do, very much! I aint ashamed of admitting at all, it gives a huge ego boost to me to know that people recognize me.

Yesterday was one such ego boosting day for me.On the way to CP .....Just as I was about to enter into a showroom, I felt a gentle tap on my shoulders, I turned around ... middle aged guy standing next to me. He smiled and asked me, ‘excuse me'," are you happysharma?”I was zapped completely, I stared at him, wide eyed, for a few seconds, before nodding my head, “yes I am…” then his smile broke into a wide grin, and he extended, almost thrust his hand towards me, “ I am lonelyangel” . And I shot back with “I don’t belive this” and this is how I met an old blogger. For the very first time, someone recognized me as ‘happysharma’, I cant tell you how happy I was, happy is too mild a word to describe the state of my mind and my heart !

All those dozens of blogs finally paid off, that’s how I felt, And now we both feel that we were destined to meet somehow! Our contacts revived he gave me lots of suggestions for which I am thankful!!

That was such a happy moment !!

Happy !!

The fault is mine

I was looking to some poems and suddendly I came accross this one .....

I just want to say sorry to all


Your friendship is a gift
Oh so precious and so rare
Sometimes I take it for granted
Sometimes I do despair

Some days I say ,you are my friend
Some days I treat you bad
I say things I don’t mean
But I never meant to make you mad

Everyday is a struggle for me
My mind is an angry storm
Suffering from illness
That makes me feel forlorn

They say I will get better
All I need is time
Meanwhile I am losing friends
Which is not a very good sign

I live in fear of a particular treatment
The chance of being placed in a hospital
Surrounded by doctors and ones like me
I fear it may be possible

Oh I wish I could get better
And stop the voices in my head
That make me angry and fearful
Causing me to say things I should have never said


Your love for me was wonderful
So precious and so rare
You loved me no matter what
And made me feel good everywhere


It tore you up and hurt you beyond repair
I ceased all contact with you because I got so mad
Now I regret writing it and cry all day
It was not worth it making you so sad.

Nothing good comes out of conflict
Nothing positive is near
I pray that you can someday forgive me
And speak those words that I want to hear

My fault is being sick
My mistakes are everywhere
Please let me not lose the gift
That is so precious and so rare.

Happy !

"Change your thoughts you can change the world "

I met Rama after a gap of 4 years in June 2008 ,She presented me a coffee mug with a quote printed "Change your thoughts you can change the world ".That time I did not understand the zest of the quote but yesterday while I was having coffee in the same mug I read the quote and realised what I have done !!!Thanks Sweety

It's been 4 months now I was countiounsly saying I m out of my mind ,M I ?Manytimes I have heared ppl saying I am selfish,Careless,egostic ...blah blah !
I was afraid M I really the same ?I asked my parents they said you are bit irritating thats it ,parents are the loving pillars ,they will never say I am stupid ,I mean how can they ..then I asked many friends number of times ,but everytime I've got stupid answers,without anything solid .But the last words were always "No,You are not".But suddendly I start reliasing that I am full of negative thoughts with a poisonous attitude.Every time I say something, it’s always negative and I feel like I'm just sucking the life like a vampire.I mean it’s okay to express how you feel but I've started looking at the world in a totally different light. I’ve learned now when you speak, you speak things into existences. When you say “I’m good for nothing”, you view yourself that way and you don’t take care of yourself the way you should. But when you say “I Am Perfect, Confidence, Intelligent, I AM ME”…then you feel better about yourself and you encourage others around you to be great.This is what exactly I feel .I have stop sucking others life .I am no more a vampire .
Honestly, the people we meet daily reflect who you are as a person n when they hang out with negative people like me they are not as happy as they should be BUT when really they hang out with someone who is positive they tend to smile more and feel more alive.So I've decided to live them their lives to the happiest.there is no place for a vampire in anyones life .I wish I could change it .uhmm..yeah I know its my attitude ..but I really don't know why I am on the above thinking path .It just came to my mind.

Happy !